Day 1 of Ramadhan: #StayAtHome during Covid-19 Pandemic

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Alhamdulillah. Thousands or even millions of this saying will never enough. I'm still in shock actually. Even after all those time.

In brief, Covid-19 already reached Indonesia. The first case announced on 2nd March. From that point, the numbers of infected, death and recovered are soaring. Oddly enough I didn't feel any assurance knowing the recovered one. Probably because I know the capacity of our country test is still far from sufficient.

Up until now the only thing I can do is #StayAtHome. Well, at dorm to be exact because I cannot go back home. Trying hard to accept reality. The new normal. And lower expectation of being back to my old life sooner.

So yeah. This is my first Ramadhan away from home being alone. Just me. My self. And I. I am responsible of my own life. Unfortunately I can't fast yet, today. I am on my perioed. Surely there's a slight disappointment but I know it is normal. Right?

My work has shifting into #WorkFromHome almost for a month. It changes my daily routinity. A lot. Every morning we would have a Zoom Meeting. Now everyone know what is Zoom, I guess? This is a mandatory meeting. To make sure we all really #StayAtHome and not going anywhere.

During the meeting I always try to look decent. Wearing a good hijab, not an instant one. Applied lipstick on. Even without make up. Just lipstick. To make me look as professional as possible. Not looking like a sloth. Hehe.

I stopped groceries shopping. Because the nearest supermarket always packed. No physical distancing and that scared me to death. Here I am trying my best to prevent Covid-19 but everyone just look so calm like nothing happen. A bit arrogant if I can say. Knowing this city already on red zone. Pfuuh.

All of this honestly kind of shaking my faith. My quarter life crisis turned into a global crisis.

Alhamdulillah the existence of Ustadh and Ustadhah in social media give me hope. A little. They said this is a time when your tauheed can be applied. Virus is Allah creation. And this pandemic no other than His Taqdir. It has already written. We as believer have to ikhtiar, and never stop asking for forgiveness. Make dua as much as possible.

I always reminded that nothing in life is certain. Just as nothing in life is forever. Be it our health, wealth, family, even chances. These should not be taken for granted. For every chance, grab it as much as possible. We never know when the second chance will come. For every time given to us, use it as effective as possible. Never wasted in even a second (uhm, I still learn to do it).

This Ramadhan, what I want is....quite a lot.
To have a healthy body and mind.
To strengthen my faith.
To be grateful.
To pray. Never get tired of praying.
To increase the quality of Iman.
To caring for others.
For everyone having a hard time, given strength. This too shall pass. May Allah rising our level up by this test.

Last, I will try to put verse from Al-Qur'an to end my post. This is last verse (286) of Al-Baqarah (2).

“Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. "Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people.”