Selamat malam. Malam yang damai, syahdu.. Hanya bertemankan laptop tersayang ditemani musik berupa bunyi detak dari jam dinding yang menempel. Hari ini saya dapat pencerahan (lagi). Alhamdulillah setelah memutuskan untuk berubah, saya benar-benar merubah. Mungkin perubahan itu tidak kasat mata. Apalagi dari pandangan orang lain. Mungkin yang tahu hanya saya, dan tentunya Allah sebagai sang Maha Tahu.
Ceritanya, sore ini ada seorang teman ummi dateng kerumah. Niatnya nemuin ummi karena memang biasanya begitu. Ternyata beliau menawarkan barang dagangan. Ya begitulah.. Ummi sedang sibuk kan tuh makanya saya yang ke depan. Tanya ada apa? Jual apa?
Dan beliau menjawab jual yah semacam handmade gitu lah. Ada case henpon (iya, henpon kok bukan handphone :p), bantal boneka, dsb. Ummi pun milih bantal boneka.
Udah gitu aja?
Bukan. Bukan itu intinya. Ada cerita tersendiri dibalik semuanya. Fyi aja teman ummi itu teman "lama" yang suka "datang" ke ummi cuma kalo lagi butuh. Kalo beliau lagi butuh..............uang :') Saya tau bener lah ya itu. Tapi saya nggak akan menceritakan lebih banyak tentang beliau.
Gara-gara beliau saya jadi curhat-curhat ala ibu dan anak gitu deh sama ummi x))
Kalian tau kan ya kalau saya itu bisa dibilang anak rumahan. Saya jarang banget ikut anak-anak kelas main. Nggak cuma anak kelas, anak angkatan SMP, SD, TK (yang terakhir boong bingit). Sampai ada temen yang bilang sesuatu yang membuat saya sakit hati (halah). Enggak deng, nggak sakit hati tapi cuma ya lumayan menusuk...hehe.
Kata dia saya itu apa sih nggak pernah mau diajak main. Betul, sampai temen sekelas punya acara main juga saya nggak dikasih tau lagi. Huft huft huft galau? Sedih? Kalau itu saya yang dulu saya bakal menyalahkan orang tua saya. Atas ketatnya pengawasan sampai merasa terkekang. Beruntungnya saya, saya sekarang sudah mulai mengerti. Saya tidak mencoba membantah. Mempertanyakan kenapa saya diperlakukan seperti ini?
Sore ini saya semakin terharu atas segala yang orang tua saya lakukan. Ummi bilang kalau ummi sama abi bener-bener takut akan apa yang terjadi sama saya. Karena saya perempuan. Ummi dan abi mengkhawatirkan saya. Dengan cara mereka sendiri. Serius saya seketika itu merasa hangat. Dan air mata saya ingin menetes. Tapi saya tahan...
Saya semakin sadar, benar kalau sebetulnya segala sesuatu yang orang tua lakukan semua itu demi anak mereka. Demi kebahagian mereka. Masa depan mereka. Pengorbanan mereka tidaklah terasa ketika melihat anaknya bahagia dengan apa yang telah mereka berikan. Dan mereka tidak pernah menuntut hal apapun. Orang tua hanya ingin ketika saatnya nanti, sang anak selalu ingat dan menyayangi mereka tanpa ada paksaan.
Melalui tulisan ini, saya ingin berterima kasih kepada Allah yang telah mengirimkan sepasang malaikat untuk melindungi saya. Terimakasih ummi dan abi, semoga kelak saya bisa membalas apa yang telah ummi dan abi korbankan untuk saya. Love, your daughter<3 i="">
eclair5882
Ya fella! I'm back. It's still Eid Mubarak's atmosphere even actually 1 Syawal has passed about a week. I with all my sincerity sayin' Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum. May Allah accept all of our worship during Ramadhan like fasting, recite Al-Qur'an, and so on. Besides, I also asking for apologize. Deep apologize for all of my mistakes. No one has no mistakes rite? Including me.
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Also, today is Indonesian Independence Day. Happy 68th Birthday Indonesia! There are lot of wishlist than I hope will be granted soon. I (still) proud to be an Indonesian. Even though British is my dream. LOL.
So today is the very first day of school after 2 weeks Eid Mubarak's holiday. Glad. I can meet all of my friends after holiday. My holiday not that interesting, eh? Today I wake up at 5.00 am yes baby I trying hard to wake up. Remember that in holiday I wake up at about 10.00 am *grin*. Alhamdulillah, I got a very beautiful morning. I saw sun rise so shining! Like a piece of art that God made. I grateful because I don't missed this beautiful opportunity.
Emm.. Just like Independence Day as usual my school held a ceremony. Which not that fascinating. I got my first surprised in this moment. So I was chatting with Dika. You can understand rite we have so many story to tell. We haven't meet about 2 weeks! Even we keep in touch by technology called twitter, line, etc. I dunno what I did wrong but suddenly a hand punch me so hard. I was really shocked. What? Why? Who? A teacher punch me and she says: SHUT UP! A GIRL'S VOICE IS AURAT (you know AURAT on Islam rite?). Definitely she yelling at me. I answered her without thinking: NO, IT WASN'T ME. But she has a devil eyes so I quiet. Deep in my heart I feel so embarrassed. Because of her, my friends around me laughing so hardly. Ugh.. I will always remember that line. That sound. But I have no resentment. It's still Eid Mubarak, rite?^^ *acting cute*
Second surprise for this day came when I walked to class. Guess what? Javaneese lesson coming back! Darn it. I was really pleased when I heard than Javaneese lesson is no longer exist in 2013 curriculum. But now...............OH GOD WHY? :/
Last surprise was..........a neighbour told me that I picked to be a singer. Eh not a singer maybe group singer for a week from now. He told me that I have to sing in front of all my neighbourhood. What? What? What? He also told maybe around 10 people (High School students, exactly) will sing. I just sayin' InsyaAllah but I definitely not gonna come! Haha sorry.
That's all for today. I promised with my self to write, write, and write. Writing is part of my life so I won't let it go haha kbye see ya! :D
Also, today is Indonesian Independence Day. Happy 68th Birthday Indonesia! There are lot of wishlist than I hope will be granted soon. I (still) proud to be an Indonesian. Even though British is my dream. LOL.
So today is the very first day of school after 2 weeks Eid Mubarak's holiday. Glad. I can meet all of my friends after holiday. My holiday not that interesting, eh? Today I wake up at 5.00 am yes baby I trying hard to wake up. Remember that in holiday I wake up at about 10.00 am *grin*. Alhamdulillah, I got a very beautiful morning. I saw sun rise so shining! Like a piece of art that God made. I grateful because I don't missed this beautiful opportunity.
Emm.. Just like Independence Day as usual my school held a ceremony. Which not that fascinating. I got my first surprised in this moment. So I was chatting with Dika. You can understand rite we have so many story to tell. We haven't meet about 2 weeks! Even we keep in touch by technology called twitter, line, etc. I dunno what I did wrong but suddenly a hand punch me so hard. I was really shocked. What? Why? Who? A teacher punch me and she says: SHUT UP! A GIRL'S VOICE IS AURAT (you know AURAT on Islam rite?). Definitely she yelling at me. I answered her without thinking: NO, IT WASN'T ME. But she has a devil eyes so I quiet. Deep in my heart I feel so embarrassed. Because of her, my friends around me laughing so hardly. Ugh.. I will always remember that line. That sound. But I have no resentment. It's still Eid Mubarak, rite?^^ *acting cute*
Second surprise for this day came when I walked to class. Guess what? Javaneese lesson coming back! Darn it. I was really pleased when I heard than Javaneese lesson is no longer exist in 2013 curriculum. But now...............OH GOD WHY? :/
Last surprise was..........a neighbour told me that I picked to be a singer. Eh not a singer maybe group singer for a week from now. He told me that I have to sing in front of all my neighbourhood. What? What? What? He also told maybe around 10 people (High School students, exactly) will sing. I just sayin' InsyaAllah but I definitely not gonna come! Haha sorry.
That's all for today. I promised with my self to write, write, and write. Writing is part of my life so I won't let it go haha kbye see ya! :D
eclair5882
Yay people! I write it after I got my sahur. Maybe it gonna be the last sahur (also fasting, of course!) for this year. Ah why did time went so fast? The very first day fasting I didn't even celebrate it. Like nothing special. But after went this far, Eid Mubarak so close!! Excited? Yup. Exactly. Not only excited, I also feel so sad. Do you think I'm sad because Ramadhan leaving very soon? Oh no I'm not that pure person :/ a lil bit maybe. The reason why I sad is.................I really really really miss my grandma! Kind of that.
This year Eid Mubarak will be so boring without her (again&again). Since se had passed away about many years ago. Yet I still love her. Lot of memories I took with her. I love her so so much. I was thinking about her in tarawih shalah lately. And tears stream down my face right that time :'") fyi she is my grandma from my mom's family. May her have a best place there :) *send pray*
Ramadhan this year I didn't have any special event. Yep therea are lot invitation to breakfasting together. Even my elementary's friends also had an event. Unfortunately I didn't attend any of all. Cause of course my dad never allowed me to go anywhere. Yes dude I'm rapunzel in 2013 year! Hahaha *tears of sickness*. Whatever lah may today fasting will be completed without any pebbles obstruct. And if today I completed my fasting, my fasting was full a month :DDD dunno should I excited or sad but it's blissful dude! Happy fasting everyone!
This year Eid Mubarak will be so boring without her (again&again). Since se had passed away about many years ago. Yet I still love her. Lot of memories I took with her. I love her so so much. I was thinking about her in tarawih shalah lately. And tears stream down my face right that time :'") fyi she is my grandma from my mom's family. May her have a best place there :) *send pray*
Ramadhan this year I didn't have any special event. Yep therea are lot invitation to breakfasting together. Even my elementary's friends also had an event. Unfortunately I didn't attend any of all. Cause of course my dad never allowed me to go anywhere. Yes dude I'm rapunzel in 2013 year! Hahaha *tears of sickness*. Whatever lah may today fasting will be completed without any pebbles obstruct. And if today I completed my fasting, my fasting was full a month :DDD dunno should I excited or sad but it's blissful dude! Happy fasting everyone!
eclair5882
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